Emoxotic

SquareOne

2011-02-12T20:55:00.004+08:00

Back to my battle ground , thinks here still suits me best .

Once i types in here , guess those who reads my blog shall already know.
Emo have slowly emerge out again . Great feeling huh ?
Keep wondering and wondering . What on earth have i done wrong to deserve this ?
Perhaps i should carry a statue of whatever god in my hands wherever i go ?
God , this is torturing . Why not we change shoe one day ?
Maybe then you will realize your jokes are not at all funny .

TIK TOK TIK TOK
I can actually hear the time creeping by . Incredible eh ?

PUM PUM PUM .
Who's there at the doorstep of my heart ?

Happy 2011

2010-12-31T21:55:00.002+08:00

Bored to the maximun man !
Nvm . at least it means im 1 day nearer to my release date =)
haha, what a way to self console myself .

Well , this few days im so down with fatigue .
dunno wat happen to my body too .
its seems so tired all the while . need love perharps XD

Speaking of love , wth with it . argh
i dont want to have any bgr right now .
but yet this feel kept flooding into my mind,
sorry , im not going to get into it , so ....
just quickly get a bf and let my heart die away will you ?
thanks for the favour .

hmm ,, so long my friends .
last post of 2010 .
goodbye loves

imy dear

2010-12-12T09:02:00.002+08:00

Back !

hello everybody . im back ! you mei you miss wo ? LOL!

anyway let mi re-intro myself again alright .my name is lawlen . yoo know fallen / swollen ? that the 'len' im talking about ..NOT LAWLAN OR LAULAN !!! RAWR ~~

was busying with meeting up with friends all this so no time blog ,sorry . wil try to blog more i n future provided i got time ;) always busy .lalala.

anyway thats all for now .
i know its kinda short ...but i dunno wat to blog lo! lol

withloves~

2009-04-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

Clocks clicking , times running out .
Human changes in a flash . STRESS~

Puff the cigarette
inhale and exhale ,
you'll see paladin in front w/o free wishes . SHARKS !

17th April 2009 , 4 more typical day I'm going to survive under the sun
I wonder if there's gonna be anyone the brighten up everything

Sigh~ i brought foolscap papers and pen today .
gonna write letters . For Collin
don't know what should i write also .

i miss who/what/where/when/how now

Lehnis BaPE

2009-04-11T11:23:00.000+08:00

The Saturday right after Good friday

Had quite a good tight sleep last night , and woke up early this morning.
Washed up my face , took a puff . And switch on my laptop .
Stared at it for like 10-20 minutes and i still don't what to do with it ,
ran through my friendster , found out it so dead .
But never mind , I'm not on for friendster anymore .
Now link to my blog , trying to emo myself for a new post ,
but i failed . HAHA ?

* ABOVE PARAGRAPH IS A TOTAL COCKNESS

It just left a week or more to my court day ,
thinks and thoughts are dashing over my mind ,
horror and horrified are creeping on my heart .
Result ...? Question marks will be the only answer for it .

Well , I don't what else to post anymore .
now messaging with zu-er =]

Quit loving because its harmful
Choose flirting because its a healthier choice *wink*

2009-03-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling Blue ~

A very bad saturday indeed , forced me to post blog which i haven't post for a decade . Sorry to ps ben they all today for the sentosa trip , i'm so out of mood since last night .
Started sneezing since last night i reached home . Can't even turn in for a good sleep . thousands and millions of things is running through my head .

Finally i slept , which i don't know wat time . And woke up a 8am , thought wanted to get myself prepared for sentosa trip , but i still find myself in total moodless mode. So i stayed in my bed looking at the four sides of my wall , keep viewing my handphone inbox , hoping for a good morning msg . In the end , nothing or no1 reach me .

Untill 10am , ben called followed by ah boy and also xinyu . Rejected all calls , so they intend to invade to my house to wake me up . Stood outside my room's window calling my name , their voice is just lik a cat moaning outside my room . But i just don't give a damn . Carried on with day-dreaming , till they gone , till rainfalls , i'm still in my room filled with unwanted emotions .

Sigh~ billions and zillions of my braincells had been killed today . 21st of March . In conclusion , its just a fairytale desire on you . Maybe one day it might be a incredible wish of mine to come true impossibly , but maybe is still maybe . Not too much hope in the future either .

Kai hong pls come back quickly , i need a brainwash session with you .

Lehnis BaPE signing off ~*

2009-01-13T13:44:00.002+08:00

Its your voice that made me fell out wif my heart ,
and now is voice that made me kill my heart again.
The voice of a total sweetness .

Economy crisis , and guess what .
Its a reason for civil defense to cut our pay .
Unreasonable isn't it ?
Singapore is damn welfare you see ,
give us Gst now and every year , good right.
Now they gave us great discounts too ,
a 300 SGD in our NSF pay .
100% wind up ! argh ~

Been very healthy lately , playing Bb all day long .
healthy right . Wahahs .
I'm going to mia and stay in camp lik what i must .
so peoples , if you see me .
Its equivalent to strike lottery XD
Smsing with ji Dan now ,
still considering wan meet her or book in early .
maybe just meet her and book in slightly late ba =]

that's all i shall post . lazy le .

Lehnis BaPE ' A millions eyes on a pity girl

2009-01-06T21:51:00.003+08:00

Forget the unforgetable
Forgive the unforgivable
I voiced out my praise for everyone

Its the month of whitelight , a duty for me and my platoon mates
to search for Mas selamat .Sigh ~* A tough job indeed ,
though he had escape for 11 months .
But we still had to do those time wasting search .
Well , its NS , which means ' No Say '
what to do .-.-''

I start to realize my ORD date is N/A .
Due to my current case , I'm equivalent to a free lancer.

Nothing much to say i suppose .
Just bits of my normal life
which i think its not necessary to post out .
sleep tight peoples

Lehnis BaPE ' What done is done.

2008-12-31T22:04:00.002+08:00

Last day of the year,

Lets ditch those unhappy memories ,
pitch up those happy memories ,
and together we set off to 2009 without a hitch .

Hi , its 31st December 2008 . I attend court at 10am ,
postpone till 28 Jan 2009 , guess why it postpone so long ?
The victim whack by me is currently lying in ICU for the past 3 weeks.
Gosh~ this is damn unbelievable dude .
Well , I'm still facing it with my smile =D

Speaking of smile , I've been crazying for the past period of times .
Putting up my cheerful smile like the past . which can be said ,
I'm once lawlen again . But , i think I've 'walk fire enter devil' already.
Hahaha, anyway my butt is cleanly wipe ready for sentence already .
No worries guys =D

New Year Wish - faster recover my coughing illness '
(Its killing me*)

happynewyearpeoples~*

Lehnis BaPE

2008-12-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

Days by days my lives goes on .
happy / merry whatever event had past ,
so delighted that i wasn't involve in any of it .

sigh~ 3 more days , just 3 more days . how am i going to spend it ?
i don't know whats gonna happen to me ,
maybe judge will just throw me into Qrp . Bored~
And for the rest of my members , don't worry ,
sure postpone for you guys one.

One of my beloved brother , Gray. ( I'm sorry i post you here)
well , something unpleasant happened to one of his family members.
Cancer is the unpleasant , i hope those readers of mine can just help me pray .
pray for his / her recovery of cancer .
Gray , i shall pray hard for your sake ,
no matter where i end up , whether its inside or outside .
I'll be praying =D

I think i have grown up , i also don't know why i felt so .
Just that , its timed i supposed .

i wanna see you pretty .End*

Lehnis Bape *

2008-12-04T02:36:00.003+08:00

Love in the inner heart , not the outer shell

I got a friend . she ask why cannot be friends .
Did i ever said i don't want be friends ?
Well , please walk out of the box and figure out what is going on in the box .
Its not me after all , i still can be friends
Remember that smile i respond to your appearance ?
And you didn't even smile back when i said hi .

Till now or even future , i still had to appreciate the song myself , solo .
Did i did , or didn't i didn't ? I wish i did and i didn't .
A phrase of confusion isn't it ? a smarter child will understand XD

I kept trying to kill boredom from my life , but its just keep reviving . -.-''
long off days since Monday , sound mi out anyone ?

when will my phone be ringing with sound of happiness ?

MrKeai' lehnis is my name

2008-11-23T14:28:00.002+08:00

White mentality
Dark innovation
which cos those hands on and idiotic mind-mapping game .

lalas~its my off-day again . going to sleep later cos just reach home . tired ~ its my off-day and i spend it to sleep T.T .

its 23rd Nov 2day . its a beautiful day isn't it? =D

Mrkeai'imu
hit

2008-11-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

The heart of a emoxoticist

2003 > maggie
2004 > maggie
2005 > maggie
2006 > hilltop
2007 > maggie wif hotdogs
2008 > nth but a hungry heart

bored bored bored . cb cant slp well last nite . cb jason

phan and cb soh bing zhe . thanks .its been a long time

since i shed those things , hais . bday doing duty , argh .

my blog is boring , linkies ?

MrKeai'

2008-11-13T12:40:00.002+08:00

Identical collision

Same song , but a different rythem

After all those hard times i tried to keep away from yoo , we met .

we saw each other in arcade .

i stunted

she blurred

i avoided

she approached

We smiled

i talked coldly

she replied coldly too

we left w/o saying goodbye

hais . yoo made mi miss yoo much
LastL

MrKeai'

2008-11-12T14:55:00.002+08:00

I'm drunk !

Ytd was a damn damn pathetic day for myself . wanted to go had a drink outside woodlands , yet i found there is no place for mi . In the end , i called froggy , tgt wif ah keat we drank at blk 19 -.-' wat the hell . mayb its too long i nvr drink beer le . i found myself sobby when i reach home , and in coma status as soon as i saw my bed.

Woke up now . my mind is damn ache . suddenly only ur image was allow into my brain . hais . just simply cant resist it . tried puffing in smokes - as much as possible- argh . imu . damn many.

23Nov . I'll transfer all my good luck to yoo

MrKeai'

2008-11-11T15:07:00.004+08:00

Its just a matter of time before yoo strike off single*

its Tuesday i believe , times flies indeed . No matter i spend it fun & loving OR boring & dead , the moment of time still belongs to mi .

my birthday is coming . do any care ? it falls on the sat , do i going to have time to celebrate ? God Damn Shit ! I'm having nite duties . %$#@%$@%@^%@
I'm starting to rot , its been days that i had trap myself at home , eating pills to make myself fall asleep . Sigh~* still damn fucking sick la. those medicine prescripted by Mo is totally useless T.T

2 more days of my block leave . any1 care to jio mi out ?

MrKeai '

2008-11-10T02:23:00.002+08:00

BORED BORED BORED ~!

another boring day i encounter . slept according to my plan , till 4 pm exactly =D
stay in my room touch tis touch that lik a retard fellow -.-'' well , thats mi indeed XD
finally , my stomach is calling mayday .ate abit of congee , totally dun have any appetite , hais . something[s] must be wrong . i hate my 6th sense .argh (irritated)
Stress , so i put on my causal wear and went out , for a walk at first . den go buy ciggy for destressment . see how bored i am doing these things alone ?
Then proceed on to basketball court ,hoping tt some1 would be down there .In the end , cold winds blows T.T . So LL must go home , go blogshoping =D

hais ~ there goes a boring day .today my hp didn't ring at all , will it ring tml ? i hope so

MrKeai'

2008-11-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

FUCK! Great nice guy indeed

hais . i'm damm damm sick . woke up 4pm tis afternoon . expected some morning msges . but ..... sigh~* stayed at home emo . cos whole body damm weak . finally step out of my house at 7pm . went to play arcade and headed to BukitBatok hometeamNS to play bowling . end up fully booked and just get to watch ppl play .

i'm tired reali tired , i'm heading towards a endless dead-end.i'm lost and i'm totally lost . where should i go wat should i do ? i lived in my black and white world now . My dream towards my rainbow brigde is getting furthur and futhur . i miss ai reali reali miss her . hais .

1 more week to my bday , an empty mind for celebration . and again i asked . wat should i do ? a total disappointment when i heard upon the news of staying in . and *poof* there goes my bday celebration . an adv celebration was on my mind . but i still dunno how to celebrate =C

MrKeai' i miss MRS Heng

I AM THE WIND

2008-11-08T16:45:00.007+08:00

I AM THE WIND

On the land no blade of grass move without me
At sea , every raised wave is touch by me
Wherever yoo are , i am high enough to see you
And strong enough to reach out for you
And place strength into ur hands
You may not always see me
But you will always feel me i'll be there for yoo

POP LO ~~~~~ Blured * moments XD
teletebies suit ! hahs
fucking hot suit -.-''

After those hard work i had put into this course , i finally pass out smoothly le =] after this i'm going to collect sgt's pay lo . haha! lalala~

happy showns in front of my face ,but my heart is always unhappy . hais ! i done the wrong thing . shouldn't had trust him . a big big *sigh~*
well , at tis point of time . i had to walk 1 step c 1 step liao lor :(

i having my block leave for tis period of time . jio mi out uh !? if not i will proceed wif my coma plan and slp at home all the while le uh . buaiis

MrKeai'

The sour grape in peoples' eyes

2008-11-03T21:06:00.002+08:00

4 more days for mi to finish my course . and poof* i'm gonna go buy tis and buy that . hahs , still considering to buy a present for a belated B'day XD

Well , sadd enough to say . we as a human had only be granted 1 mouth , and yet humans can find a million ways to speak out a millions words from their evil mouth . And worst of all , they make use of their hands , in facts fingers ! to speak out of evil . Human of the kind , dun get influnce by tis evil's speaks , act as a bystander and c how these human idiots makes a fool out of themselves .

Amen * i drop a challenge to yoo ; FATE !

sweet grieved dream

2008-11-02T05:44:00.002+08:00

She:我要负出
He:负出？
She:是，我要负出我所有的爱
and we both end up holding hands walking by the beach .

people always say dream is e reversal in real life , any yet i'm always having those swwets dreams do it mean my life is so pathetic ? Sigh ~

today i had my fuck up day . slp almost a day . went cwp at 5 and went back home at 6 AND went back cwp at 8 .wth -.-'' decided not to go home and enjoy my nite life today . but in the end nvr .Instead , unhappy things happened. i went to wdl centre for hongjoo return to go pearl center and and have our happy hours , but during that period ...things happened. idiot dennis soh grab my precious beloved cap and squeeze , tears almost leak out from mouth =( i gave her a upper cut at her chin . this i the first time i whack a gal . thanks . Den she wan tiao jui blablabla de. I tort its going to be a fight wif whoever she is calling down . In the end , nth happened at all ! ccb she spoiled my whole 'happy hours'mood ARGH !!!
hais , so pearl center's trip was cancel ]= went back my house for mahjong session . LOST ! is lik a wat the Fcuk day for mi .total sadness. haish ~~

going book in tml agn . how is my day gonna be tml ? hope i'm able to enjoy it. mayb i'm going peeking session tml XD

MrKeai'
i miss yoo alot . real lots . when will the next meeting up be ? awaits*

Defination ; yoo're a bad gal now.

2008-10-31T22:57:00.004+08:00

Good or bad . its all define by mans , by all means . i define yoo as a bad gal now . From him , to another him , to another him , and so so on . D'=

This week times flies damm slow ar ~~

and today book out is damm suay de lor . reach cwp den realise nvr bring wallet out .argh . sprained my leg while playing basketball. reach home wan drink water also can spill until e whole floor . argh ~wat a day . Tsk!

damm damm tired now. aniway , 1 more week till i end my course . a veri veri good new . I PASSED MY IPPT , wo0ts~ which means allowance . hahs !

2more weeks to my Bday . hais. n'o plans at all ! any ideas guys o.0

Mrkeai'

Black Instinct

2008-10-27T14:21:00.001+08:00

hellow ! this my new blog . no longer using xanga le .
spend my whole weekend trying to figure out how to use blogspot . hahs well, not veri nice indeed. still under contruction .
special thanks to my dearest jieije XD

today i'm havin having a veri good mood . cos finally can go starhub le . go find jie ! woots. and oso i won money last nite during mahjong session . hees ~but the bad news is , i lost my Gf away . =(
but its ok after all. lucky i had done perperation work , so i'm feeling nth after all .

thats all for my first post on Bs .
setting off to cwp ~TC !

MrKeaí'